First of all, my name is to be officially changed to J Free....formerly known as Deep Freeze....

I don't deserve God's grace.....That's the story of my life. I grew up in a Godly home, my father was a pastor & my mother a prayer warrior. When I was a young boy, my parents would always tell me I was a target of satan because God had a powerful plan for my life, but I continually ignored it. As i grew into my teenage years I rebelled against all godliness, and turned to drugs, alcohol, & music. I had been rhyming loosely since the age of 11, but focused in seriously during my dark days of sinfulness. By the age of 15, I reached a peak in my skills formulating potent metaphors & interpretations through my rhymes; but I always felt like i was lacking something....Friends from church would always encourage me to come to Christ, They would explain how he was the answer to life, but my pride would deny that truth with excuses. For two years, from 13 to 15, the holy spirit would always find a way to bring the love of Christ & the gospel my way...from a flyer laying on the street, to a billboard sign, to something said on tv...It was like God had his finger on me no matter how far I away I tried to run. February 1st, 2000 I went to my first church service in just over one year...and the entire time, everything the pastor spoke of was directly aiming at me...The power God touched my life, and his hand was so heavy on me I couldn't run away anymore..I bowed my knee to Christ that night and was radically saved. I remained in Christ for almost 4 years, powerfully ministering & abiding in God, until a season in my walk with the Lord that I stopped trusting God and backslid. I never had a true reason for leaving Christ, and during these years I experienced pain like none other. Once again, pride filled my heart and despite the pain I felt, I would not admit I made the biggest mistake of my life, and come back home. Trying so hard to fill my emptiness, I experimented with all types of ungodliness. I knew deep down nothing could take the place of Jesus in my heart, and I started wanting to come back to Christ so bad....The devil lied to me for so long, and the shame I felt kept me from going to church. At the time, I had lost my job, my wife & I, who both grew up in church were having so many problems because of my issues of honesty & integrity, & my emptiness grew, and slowly everything was coming to a full collapse in my life. For a time, I truly believed there was no hope for me....until one night...I watched a pastor on tv preaching on the woman caught in adultery...and Jesus forgave her and caused all her accusers to be shut up....and beyond that, he delivered her from this bondage. The pastor proclaimed that Christ's power was the same today for my life. At that moment hope filled my heart, & I prayed there in my living room to receive salvation. The prodigal son came home. Thank you Jesus. Amen.